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[personal profile] nilchance
This year I:

- had three periods of being suicidal (doing better now);
- got fired from my fucking terrible nightmare job;
- started writing every day again;
- became so anemic that I needed IV iron;
- read 110 books;
- celebrated my 15th anniversary with T;
- got federally married (!!!);
- started working with a new god;
- dyed my hair blue;
- got a month long case of bronchitis;
- survived.

Despite the hard parts of the year, I'm happy. I didn't realize how much the toxic job had impacted me. My chest doesn't hurt all the time. I'm not having night terrors. I'm remembering who I am, and what I like, and what I want. Every day feels like taking first wobbly steps into the daylight.

I'm so lucky to have my wife, and my found sisters, and my in-laws who have adopted me into their family. I'm lucky that a god heard me wondering about him, and reached out to poke me repeatedly in the forehead until I paid attention. I'm lucky to have a shrink who works with me to make my brain stop trying to kill me. I'm lucky to have a persistent, snuggly dog who demands petting and walks. I'm lucky to have my cats: Samwise the brave, Gracie of the rattling purr that sounds like a helicopter touching down, Boodle the "helpful" tortie. And I'm lucky to have y'all.

May your new year be bright.

Date: 2016-01-03 05:01 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] poisontaster
I love you, with all my heart. ♥

Date: 2016-01-04 12:26 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] realpestilence
I'm glad you're doing better. I wouldn't like a world that didn't have you in it.

Date: 2016-01-04 12:14 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] beanside
I love you, my goddess. I'm proud of you.


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