2015 in review
Jan. 2nd, 2016 11:43 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nilchanceThis year I:
- had three periods of being suicidal (doing better now);
- got fired from my fucking terrible nightmare job;
- started writing every day again;
- became so anemic that I needed IV iron;
- read 110 books;
- celebrated my 15th anniversary with T;
- got federally married (!!!);
- started working with a new god;
- dyed my hair blue;
- got a month long case of bronchitis;
- survived.
Despite the hard parts of the year, I'm happy. I didn't realize how much the toxic job had impacted me. My chest doesn't hurt all the time. I'm not having night terrors. I'm remembering who I am, and what I like, and what I want. Every day feels like taking first wobbly steps into the daylight.
I'm so lucky to have my wife, and my found sisters, and my in-laws who have adopted me into their family. I'm lucky that a god heard me wondering about him, and reached out to poke me repeatedly in the forehead until I paid attention. I'm lucky to have a shrink who works with me to make my brain stop trying to kill me. I'm lucky to have a persistent, snuggly dog who demands petting and walks. I'm lucky to have my cats: Samwise the brave, Gracie of the rattling purr that sounds like a helicopter touching down, Boodle the "helpful" tortie. And I'm lucky to have y'all.
May your new year be bright.
- had three periods of being suicidal (doing better now);
- got fired from my fucking terrible nightmare job;
- started writing every day again;
- became so anemic that I needed IV iron;
- read 110 books;
- celebrated my 15th anniversary with T;
- got federally married (!!!);
- started working with a new god;
- dyed my hair blue;
- got a month long case of bronchitis;
- survived.
Despite the hard parts of the year, I'm happy. I didn't realize how much the toxic job had impacted me. My chest doesn't hurt all the time. I'm not having night terrors. I'm remembering who I am, and what I like, and what I want. Every day feels like taking first wobbly steps into the daylight.
I'm so lucky to have my wife, and my found sisters, and my in-laws who have adopted me into their family. I'm lucky that a god heard me wondering about him, and reached out to poke me repeatedly in the forehead until I paid attention. I'm lucky to have a shrink who works with me to make my brain stop trying to kill me. I'm lucky to have a persistent, snuggly dog who demands petting and walks. I'm lucky to have my cats: Samwise the brave, Gracie of the rattling purr that sounds like a helicopter touching down, Boodle the "helpful" tortie. And I'm lucky to have y'all.
May your new year be bright.