FIC: Scarcely Name Salvation

[nilchance]

Title: Scarcely Name Salvation
Author: [Bad username or site: @ livejournal.com]
Rating: Adult
Pairing: Misha Collins/JDM
A/N: Sequel to If Bird or Devil. Jeff is a dom, Misha is his boy, Jensen is complicated. Short and (maybe) sweet?



Jensen wakes, bound in warmth.

There are arms around him, another body snugged up under his chin. There is comfort. For a fevered moment, Jensen thinks that blood will stain their sheets, the blood on his hands will mark and ruin them. (A washerwoman at the ford, warning of death in battle as blood dilutes pink into the river)

Then he breathes in and smells the tangle of Morgan's soap and the Oracle's weed. He remembers. Renee is dead, and it's after Christmas. He's in their bed.

His head feels swamped. Should he be in their bed? Why is he in their bed?

The Oracle is already wrapped around him like a spider monkey, but he sighs and wriggles tighter against Jensen's chest. His rumpled hair tickles Jensen's chin and throat. After a sharp pulse of worry, Jensen realizes that they're both still in clothes. It's warm in their bed, a heat that turns his muscles to jelly and his bones to lead. It feels too good to be right. He shouldn't be here, he shouldn't...

When he tries to pull back, he collides with someone curled behind him and flinches. He didn't feel them there, should've been aware of an enemy at his back. Misha grumbles, muffled against Jensen's chest, and tightens his grip. The Oracle's body is lean and supple, like a spring branch or a switch, but it holds a deceptive strength. It's not right, being held like this, it's not safe.

"Easy," Morgan says, barely audible over the pounding of Jensen's own heart. The enemy behind, or maybe the guard. It stings his pride and hurts somewhere else, deeper, to think of Morgan (Morrigan's) watching over him while he slept.

Jensen wants to snarl at him, but his words come out in a ragged whisper. Strung out, all fucked up. "I can't. I have to leave."

"Shh." Only Morgan would have the balls to shush him, to soothe him like one of his mewling clients. His hand rests on Jensen's bruised side, hot as a brand. When Jensen twitches away, Morgan only finds him and puts a hand on him again. "Go back to sleep."

"I can't," Jensen repeats, but the words are lost in the hiss of the sheets as Morgan (damn him) tucks him in and snugs tighter against his back. Morgan stretches out his long arm to cover Jensen and the Oracle both, and it's heavy as the weight of God. The Oracle hums sleepily, wedges his skinny body even closer, weaves his legs with Jensen's. "I can't," Jensen says, but it's just air ruffling the mess of the Oracle's hair.

"Stay," Morgan murmurs in his ear, dark as the blood under Jensen's nails, dark as the view behind his eyelids. Jensen tries to think vicious thoughts but even those slip through his fingers. "Stay with us," Morgan may say, but Jensen doesn't know, he's already drowned.

Comments

[meredevachon]

Short and sweet (like a single bite of darkest chocolate), and I don't have any words but *glee*

[nilchance.livejournal.com]

Thank you! *beam*

[zelda-zee.livejournal.com]

This is so sensual. I could feel the warmth and comfort, but the juxtaposition with Jensen's bloody thoughts added a bit of sharpness to it. Short, but quite wonderful.

[http://users.livejournal.com/acquiescence_/]

gosh every update of this story is just so heavy. I love it.

[lomer.livejournal.com]

Yay! I love Jeff and his ability to sooth and subtly dominate so even Jensen can't resist. And the image of Jensen snuggled between Jeff and Misha is just too wonderful. I love the descriptions of both men through Jensen's eyes. It's just wonderful.

[elizaria.livejournal.com]

i'm right now lying in bed waiting for the painkillers to kick in so i can sleeep - this was like icing on the cake. lovely

[ysbail.livejournal.com]

OOooh... that ... that was utterly yummy. Love the idea of the boys offering comfort, protection, while Jensen is sooo reluctant to accept ...

(Oh, and the way they kinda dominate Jensen here - the seaker of vengeance, bringer of violence ... oh, yeah, I really do.)

[deathangelgw.livejournal.com]

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah short but awesome! dude more quit teasin!

[livrelibre.livejournal.com]

Comforting and foreboding at once-nice job!

[qwertypoiuq.livejournal.com]

Nnnnngh. Perfection. Still craving more like a physical ache. <3

[ladykatiewench.livejournal.com]

I love him drowning in Jeff's voice. I love him trying to fight, but something as simple (and of course, complicated) as Jeff and Misha is impossible to stop.

[tabaqui]

Oh, oh, oh.
Poor fucked up, hurting, lost, so lost boy.

So glad he got this, the party and the meal and Jeff and Mischa and this bit of rest and warmth.
*sniffle*

[sierrawyndsong.livejournal.com]

mmmmmmmm.........that was really excellent

[angstpuppy.livejournal.com]

Am I *supposed* to see Maiden, Mother and Crone in 3 men? Wanders off a bit...dazed.
:-)

[kkathyslash.livejournal.com]

Sharp, sweet, and hot - chocolate and chilis. Lovely.

[hederahelix.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for this little tidbit. and now I rush from job #1 to job #2.

[darling-lisa.livejournal.com]

Short but gorgeous. So rich and decadent, I felt like such a voyeur watching such a small intimate moment.. and damn but thats a pretty picture.

[paleogymnast.livejournal.com]

Beautiful. I love this 'verse and this was truly a delicious installment. It's angsty without being angsty; content without *really* being content. Schmoopy and sweet, but with such complicated undercurrents that it's more than all that. And that's what makes it so enjoyable and satisfyiing! Thank you so much for sharing and posting!! :D

[themadmosquito.livejournal.com]

Fantastic. This verse is just an amazing read...how Jeff and Misha balance each other, Jensen who's so rivetingly damaged, the DETAIL you put into all of it . . . thank you. I appreciate every bit you give us.

[ixchel55.livejournal.com]

OMG woman! You incredible tease! That's just like waking up in the dim early morning wrapped in warm velvet and fur - so seductive.

Please ma'am. May I have some more?

*pretty puppy eyes*

[manzanas-verdes.livejournal.com]

I don't think there is enough praise in the world to express how much this little thing packs. Just know that it is adored beyong measure by this reader.

::sighs::

[nebt-het.livejournal.com]

That is a beautiful visual.

[spae.livejournal.com]

\o/ ♥ thsnk you thank you! ♥

[niccy07.livejournal.com]

God, is it werid that I find this scene increadibly sweet yet HOT at the same time. Seriously, Jeff and his boys. Just puts my mind in all the wrong (right?) places.

By the way, is this still going to be one long series, or a series of shorts?

I love this 'verse so much by the way!

[iwwfw.livejournal.com]

The tone of this fic is so fitting with the setting. Heavy, leaden, warm. Amazing how you can convey that in so little. Makes me feel warmer just reading it which is good given how cold it is outside.

[fufaraw]

So beautifully languid and sensual.

[nilchance.livejournal.com]

*hum* Thank you! And btw, I love your icon.

[fufaraw]

Isn't it a story in the making? I don't remember what movie the cap came from, but I like the mystery of it.

[doctor-dorothy.livejournal.com]

Lovely. I soooo want Jensen to be taken care of in this story. But Misha and Jeff will have their work cut out for them ...

[nilchance.livejournal.com]

Yeah, Jensen has no intention of going quietly. ;)

Thank you!

[cream-fudge.livejournal.com]

Mmmmmh, thank you for giving the poor boy a break. Oh, Jensen.

[nilchance.livejournal.com]

Thank you! Yeah, Jensen... Jensen is messed up.

[realpestilence.livejournal.com]

Jensen's not going *anywhere*! The comfort-by-force-if-necessary is palpable. I think it's going to take both of them to train Jensen enough to get into the clubs...he's too inclined to fight-or-flee, for one thing. *frowns*

Jensen's going to have a particularly hard time not seeing his need or submission as weak. Misha will help there, as he's not weak...and, hmm. Jeff's pleasure and willingness to show how much it affects him when his boys submit will, too. Getting ahead of the game, there, I know. :D

[nilchance.livejournal.com]

Yes, Jensen is like that feral cat who needs to be tackled and cleaned by the other cats, and goes snarling the whole way. Before grudgingly purring while the bigger cats clean his face.

You're right in that Jensen will be hard to take down. He doesn't see the value in submitting, it's something only weak neurotic people would need, except that Misha goes purring to the flogger and that Jensen likes the weight of Jeff's hand on his nape. So yeah. It's pleasure, and therefore Jensen will immediately reject it for himself. He hasn't even jerked off since Renee, and he certainly won't let people treat him KINDLY. That's betraying her, in his mind.

[realpestilence.livejournal.com]

I can see why Jensen would think it's weak and neurotic to *need* to submit so much.

The real Jensen is goddamn hot now, and will continue to be a hottie for a long, long time...but he was *pretty*, as a boy and teen. To me, he didn't look androgynous, or feminine; he just looked like a frighteningly pretty boy, which is somehow worse, you know? No hiding it for anything other than what it is. How the hell Jensen didn't end up molested by the football team in the school locker room or something is a wonder to me. I was talking to halfshellvenus about his mouth recently, and she said she didn't see how even the straightest straight guy could avoid looking at his lips and wondering how they'd feel on certain body parts...*clears throat*

So...*your* Jensen carries the same background, is my point (not just perving on baby!Jensen *grins*)-and probably worse, as he's not only shy but bookish. Smart, shy, pretty, bookish boys are heading straight for an ass-kicking in most schools...and how much self-blame would follow, that he must have deserved it, asked for it, or why else would they keep picking on him, etc? And to have *Renee* be the one to defend him, even as kids...well, it wouldn't help. Plus...if there was *any* amount of unexpected arousal at the manhandling...*that* would definitely not help.

You might not be heading that way, but that's what I thought of the first time I read the Renee pov chapter. "No wonder Jensen can't stand the idea of needing to submit, or seeing himself as weak..."

[aerynsun5.livejournal.com]

"heavy as the weight of God." I so love that.

Have I told you lately that I love this?