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Oct. 6th, 2009 03:17 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nilchance"The ground of the soul is dark."
~ Meister Eckhart
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I'm done with the job in 7 days. Put out 30-some resumes so far. I have faith, but there's a wee voice in the back of my head yelling that I'm crazy to do this and wtf am I THINKING and all that hysterical jazz. And worse, the little poisonous whisper that says it was never that bad and it's all in my head.
I'll be fine, I've been fine before. But I'm snappish and irritable about small things today.
~ Meister Eckhart
*****
I'm done with the job in 7 days. Put out 30-some resumes so far. I have faith, but there's a wee voice in the back of my head yelling that I'm crazy to do this and wtf am I THINKING and all that hysterical jazz. And worse, the little poisonous whisper that says it was never that bad and it's all in my head.
I'll be fine, I've been fine before. But I'm snappish and irritable about small things today.
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Date: 2009-10-06 07:29 pm (UTC)You are getting out of an abusive relationship and that's always a good thing.
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Date: 2009-10-06 07:32 pm (UTC)Yeah, I mean, I'm not thinking about crawling back. I couldn't do that and not end up on a clocktower. But it's still niggling at me like a knuckle in the ribs. Ehn-ehn-ehn.
But, y'know, without you and Mona and my lady I'd still be there. So thank you.