FIC: Charge

[nilchance]

Title: Charge
Author: nilchance
Rating: Adult
Pairing: the Losers, sexswitch: Jensen has always been a girl
A/N: I didn't actually follow up on the Roque-Jensen asskickery. Warning for frank discussion of rape.



On the flight home, Roque sits down beside her. His spine is very straight with pain and, she thinks, awkwardness; he only perches on the edge of the seat. Jensen hopes that they hit turbulence and he cracks his face on the tray table.

When Roque doesn't speak, Jensen quietly rolls her book up. The better to hit him with. It's a Stephen King doorstopper, so it should leave a dent. "What?" she asks.

Across the aisle, she sees Cougar shift from sleep to attention.

"Pooch says I ought to apologize," Roque says. "I won't."

Jensen eases her grip on the book, smooths it out again. "Oh. Well, I'm glad we cleared up that you're still a dick. Anything else?"

She probably doesn't have the security clearance to know for sure, but he might smile. It looks painful. "Had to be sure you could heft your own pack."

"Had to be sure I wouldn't get raped?" she asks, super sweet. "Sorry, buddy. I'm a woman in the fucking military. I've been there, done that."

No reaction in Roque's body language, but Cougar's fingers twitch like he's thinking of pulling a trigger.

Still not looking at her, Roque says, "I had a wife once."

News to her. News to Cougar, maybe. Jensen keeps smoothing the cover of the book, but it's in a crescent moon now and there's no fixing it. She listens.

"I had a daughter," Roque says, like the shockwave following an explosion. That hard thump of impact on the sternum.

"I'm sorry."

After a few seconds, he shakes himself like shedding water and meets her eyes. The man with the wife and daughter, he's gone. Only the man who nearly killed her now. "A battery. Pretty good, little girl."

Jensen rolls the book up again and brandishes it at him. "Call me that again and you're getting it in the balls."

Roque snorts, rises to his feet and disappears down the aisle. That leaves her looking at Cougar, who is looking at her. She asks him, "You ever hear of 'those who eavesdrop will be vexed'?"

"No," Cougar says bluntly, and goes back to sleep.

Jensen says to herself, "I should've joined the fucking Air Force."

Comments

[poisontaster]

I'm not commenting nearly enough, but I am loving these girl Jensen stories.

[nilchance.livejournal.com]

I GET ADDIE ICON YAY.

I thought of you with the King doorstopper comment. ;)

[kelly-girl.livejournal.com]

I logged on in the middle of trying to get ready just in hopes there would be more of this. I'm loving this and even loving Roque a little. He didn't apologize but he kinda sorta in his own way gave her a reason that made sense to him.

Cougar! I love your Cougar so much and so hard.

[freetodream5.livejournal.com]

*sigh* i'm finding myself loving girl!jensen more and more, especially with the shiny visual you gave :D

i still hate roque, but this made me understand him more :)

[not-sally.livejournal.com]

Dude.
Loving this 'verse (as much as all your other Losers fic... which is a whole lot)

[niccy07.livejournal.com]

YAH! New part! Also, love the take on Roque's character and reasoning!

[misslily66.livejournal.com]

Yeah for Girl!Jensen I like her lots, and who doesn't love Cougar? SRSLY!

[spazzer-mctwich.livejournal.com]

one of my favorite parts of the Bourne trilogy was when he beat a guy unconsciousness with a rolled up magazine. Now i really wanna see Jensen brain someone with a King door stopper.

[mourning-night.livejournal.com]

Really enjoying how you write girl!Jensen and how you don't shy away from the harsh side of things.

[allthelivesofme.livejournal.com]

Okay, so this is undiluted awesome. I love the King doorstopper and Cougar's fingers twitching like he wants to pull a trigger and the last line is just perfect.

I'll be sitting over here doing Precious Moments "more???" eyes now.

[paleogymnast.livejournal.com]

I still hate Roque. Understand him or not, I just don't like the behavioral conclusions at which he arrives to cope. Doesn't mean he's wrong, I just don't like him. But Jensen? is awesome. I want to see loads more Jensen and Cougar interactions. :D

Of course I wanna read more of your other Loser's 'verse too. The two Jensens are so different and yet both so... lovable. (And awesome. Did I say awesome?)

[nilchance.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I was kind of surprised when I was typing it. Like "oh, okay, la la typing this fic la la-- what?"

Cougar is my favorite. *pets him*

Thank you!

[nilchance.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I think the reasoning works for Roque, but it's not necessarily the excuse for his behavior that he thinks it is.

Thank you!

[nilchance.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[nilchance.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[nilchance.livejournal.com]

Man, I can't imagine not LOVING Cougar. *beam*

Thank you!

[nilchance.livejournal.com]

Awesome icon and comment match-up. *grin*

Thank you!

[squigglepie.livejournal.com]

I would just like to repeat paleogymnast's comment, as (s)he's said exactly what I was thinking, except I'll add like, a million more times the amount of awesome!