FIC: Of Bastard Saints, 36/36

[nilchance]

Title: Of Bastard Saints
Authors: nilchance and beanside
Rating: Adult
Disclaimer: We make no claim of ownership on the Brothers and Daddy Winchester. No infringement is intended, no money is made.
Author Notes: Set after the episode "Devil's Trap."
WARNINGS: Character maiming, violence, more angst than you can shake a stick at.



Okay, before we let you get to the fic, we wanted to say a few words. This has been a hell of ride for us, and we'd like to offer our sincere thanks to everyone who has made it so much fun. The response has been thoroughly overwhelming, between all the feedback and the recs.

We're especially thrilled with the response to our John, since we know he's not exactly the most popular person in fandom. *grin* So, for so many of you to let us know that you enjoyed him really means a lot.

So, from the bottom of our cold, black hearts, thank you! We'll see you soon with the sequel.

nilchance and beanside

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Dean closed the door behind him carefully, quietly, feeling like a bastard.

He'd left a note on the counter for Dad and Sam. He'd been careful to take the cell phone Dad bought for him last week. He had the feeling Dad had been expecting this.

Still, he was sneaking out before dawn like a fucking criminal. It didn't sit easy. But better that than some bullshit tearful goodbye, having to wish Sam luck at school or look at Dad and tell him that sorry, but Dean just couldn't sit still for anybody. The road called, and Dean couldn't ignore it anymore.

Yeah. Nice way of saying that Dean was running like hell.

Shifting his duffel bag's strap higher on his shoulder, Dean walked towards the Impala. He slid his hand over the arch of her window, patting her absently as he opened the driver's side door. He'd missed that sound.

Dean went to climb in, tossing his bag over into the passenger seat. It hit him in the chest a moment later. Startled, Dean caught it and stared at Sam, slid low in the passenger seat.

With a yawn, Sam rubbed at his face and muttered, "Jerk."

"Sam," Dean said, his voice low, "no. Get your ass back inside."

Sam arched an eyebrow. "Dude, you should've told me that before I put all my stuff in the trunk. Too late now."

"Not funny," Dean snapped. "Get out."

Sam gave him an aggravating, bland look and put his feet up on the dash. "Where are we going?"

"Don't give me the stubborn face. I taught you that look." Dean shook his head. "Sammy, I'm not going to the fucking grocery store here. I'm leaving. I'm going back to hunt."

"Yeah," Sam said, "duh. I need to know what coast, Dean. Otherwise I can't exactly pinpoint 'the land of not here' on the atlas."

Dean's head hurt. A lot. Taking a deep breath, he stared through the windshield. Not looking at Sam, he said, "Okay. I'm sorry I was leaving without saying anything. I left a note." When Sam didn't move, Dean gritted, "Go read the damn note."

"I don't want to," Sam said obstinately. "And I don't need to. You're right here."

Gripping the steering wheel hard, Dean told it, keeping his voice carefully level, "It's over. You don't have to do this anymore. Go live your life. Just... out."

"Dean," Sam murmured. "I'm not leaving."

Dean looked at him. "I'm not saying it again."

"Yeah, like I'm that lucky."

"Sam," Dean said savagely. "Out, or I'm going to kick your skinny ass."

Sam's mouth quirked. Then he twisted in his seat, leaning over into the back to rummage in his bag.

Watching, feeling horribly helpless, Dean told Sam's back, "If this is about what I said back there... y'know. The camping. I didn't mean half of that shit. I want you to have your life-"

With a little 'aha!' noise, Sam slid back down into his seat. There was an envelope in his hands, which he pushed at Dean. "Read it."

Dean stared at him.

"Read it, jackass." Looking perversely pleased with himself, Sam laid his head back against the window. "There aren't even any big words."

Flipping him off mostly out of habit, Dean pulled the letter out of its envelope. He skimmed the first few lines, and then his brain caught 'Sam Winchester' and 'formal withdrawal', and he couldn't think to read. He looked at the words, frozen to his seat for a few long moments.

"I'm not leaving," Sam repeated softly.

Dean raised his head, staring at Sam through narrowed eyes. His throat was tight as he said, "You stupid fucking bastard."

Quirking an eyebrow, Sam said, "They didn't offer Con Job 101, Dean. You want to stop swearing at me?"

"No!" Dean tossed the letter at him, angrily. Then he shoved his duffel bag at Sam, and got a satisfying grunt as it hit Sam in the stomach. "You had a chance, you dumb- you could've-"

"I could've been bored shitless," Sam said dryly. "I could be half alive. I could live a 24 hour con job where there aren't demons out there, and where I'm up nights afraid for you-"

Dean shook his head. "I'm fucking fine, Sam, Jesus Christ-"

"Afraid for Dad. Hell, afraid for me and for whatever person I would've ended up marrying. Belial's not the end of it, Dean, and we both know it." Sam held Dean's eyes, not flinching. "There are other children out there like me. Like Meg. They're going to be very, very pissed that we killed their daddy. Tell me I'm wrong."

"All the more reason not to be around me." Dean tapped his hands on the wheel, restlessly. "I'm the one they'll want to hit. I'm the one who bound him."

"Stop," Sam said fiercely. "Stop the goddamn martyr bullshit, dude. If it's after you, it's after all of us. I'm not losing you twice."

Dean slanted Sam a look. Sam stared back at him, jaw set so tight he was shaking a little, his fists clenched in his lap and his eyes doing that too-bright thing.

"This really fucked you up," Dean said finally, quietly. "You're not okay."

"You're goddamn right it fucked me up. Jesus, Dean, I thought you were-" Sam looked around, grabbing for the leather cord around his neck and fumbling absently with it. "I thought you were gone. There was just this... gap in my life, this empty space, and... yeah. I'm still a little screwed up, okay?"

Dean sighed, looking down at his hands. Then he gripped the wheel, tight enough to see his knuckles through the skin. "Okay."

Sam raised his head, eyes shadowed. "Okay?" he asked, quietly.

"Yeah. Okay. I'm not going anywhere you can't follow, all right?" Dean flexed his fingers. "You don't have to do this."

"I want to," Sam said firmly. Then he cracked a grin. "Besides, I'm losing my mind in there. So. Goddamn. Bored."

"Yeah. Poor Dad. Oh well, soon Missouri'll be home to nag him to death." Dean pried his hands off the wheel, reached out and picked up the cord off Sam's throat. He studied the screw twined with cord, then looked at Sam, who wouldn't meet his eyes. "Dude. If you didn't use this to pick up chicks, I'm going to be so disappointed."

"What?" Sam asked, his nose wrinkling. "Yeah, women love hardware."

With an exaggerated sigh, Dean held up the cord and said, "Hey baby, want a screw?" As he held the cord up, something slid down under Sam's shirt. Dean grabbed it. "Dude! You kept my radio knob?"

Sam gave him a sheepish shrug. "Want your toe tag? It's in my wallet."

"Hey, I bit that wallet! Ugh." Dean wiped his mouth, then his tongue, on Dad's jacket. "Bleh. I got dead drug dealer in my mouth."

"And I have teeth-marks in my wallet," Sam said sourly. "Don't bitch or you're buying me a new one."

"Yeah, yeah." Dean slid the key in the ignition, hesitated for a second. "Sam? Last chance to-"

With an irritated noise, Sam reached out and grabbed Dean's hand, turning the key. The Impala purred to life, and Sam took his hand back. He tossed the duffel bag into the backseat and pulled his seatbelt on. "So. Dad suggested we hit this little town in Colorado," Sam said, rummaging for the atlas. "Leftover zombies.

Dean glanced at the house. Through the kitchen window, he could see a shadow. Dad, waiting to see them pull away safely. With a sigh, Dean snatch the radio knob off Sam's cord and pressed it into place. "Did everyone know I was leaving today but me?"

"Yeah, pretty much," Sam said cheerfully. Having flipped to the right page in the atlas, he reached out and opened the glove compartment. A small mountain of tapes tumbled out at Sam's feet.

"Thought those were dead," Dean said.

"Um. They kind of were. I made new ones. Had a lot of time to kill in the hospital."

While he still thought Dean was dead. Dean rubbed at the ache in his chest. "Uh-huh."

"Don't make a thing out of it," Sam muttered, but he was smiling as he shoved in the tape. "You pulling out or what?"

"Sounds like my prom date," Dean said. He grinned at the disgusted noise Sam made, and at the opening riff to Highway to Hell on the tape player. Putting the car in gear, he let her ease onto the road. Once she was there, he remembered the power under her hood, the smooth ride, and patted her wheel fondly. "We've got one stop to make before we go."

"Whatever," Sam said with a shrug. "We've got time."

Dean flashed him a grin, driving a little faster than was strictly necessary through the deserted streets. Dawn was breaking as they whipped into the parking lot outside the church where their hunt for the demon had ended. Sam turned to give Dean a curious look, but had his question answered as they rolled to a stop in front of the church steps.

Andrew was there in the priest garb and collar, gently ushering in a bevy of blue-haired women through the church doors. One of them had hold of his elbow and was talking his ear off, judging from Andrew's slightly pained look.

With a grin, Dean threw the brake on and eased out of the car. "C'mon, Sammy. Let's get some holy water."

"Yeah," Sam drawled. "Riiiight. Dude, so not blind."

Dean paused halfway up the steps, wincing at the sudden flare of memory that accompanied Sam's knowing little brother smirk. Sudden, graphic memory. It was one thing to know intellectually that he and Andrew had... been together. Known each other biblically. Whatever it was when you screwed a priest, Episcopalian or not. It was another to have it pop in his brain in vibrant technicolor, and wow, Andrew was flexible. And kinky. And loud.

Shaking it off, Dean opened his mouth to say hello. What came out was, "Hi, pumpkin."

Andrew turned sharply, staring at Dean. Then he laughed low in his throat, a promising sound. "Be with you in a minute." Going back to the old woman, he murmured something and patted her gently, helping her up the last step and into the church. He watched for a minute, making sure she got in all right, before spinning around to grin delightedly at Dean. "You would remember that first, you asshole. You look good."

"I'm pretty. You can say it." When Andrew made a rude noise, Dean punched him gently in the arm. "I need holy water. And a blessing, if you've got a second. The car, the weapons in the trunk and Sammy."

"And Dean," Sam said with a sigh, even as Andrew was saying sternly, "And you."

"Whatever," Dean said with a shrug, sliding his hands in his pockets. "Can't hurt."

"Dean, if anybody in this world could use a damn blessing..." Andrew dug in his jacket pocket, coming up with a little bottle of holy water. "Pop the trunk."

Dean tossed Sam the keys, let him pop the trunk. Andrew considered the arsenal inside with a muttered "niiiice", slapping Sam's shoulder absently. Then he cleared his throat, coughed into his fist and intoned, "Oh lord, bless this holy hand grenade..." As Sam snickered, Andrew glanced up at them both and winked. "Just fucking with you."

The car and the trunk got the quick Catholic-lite treatment, a bit of Latin and some holy water, Andrew making vague signs of the cross. Then he thumped the hood and turned to Sam. "C'mere. For you... any preference on pantheon? Because I've got 31 flavors."

"You're in a weird mood," Sam said, smiling.

"I got two hours of sleep. I'm punchy." Andrew shook his head, searching another jacket pocket. "You all are hard on my sleeping patterns. You're lucky I didn't show up naked again."

"Again?" Dean asked. "Well, that explains the senior citizen estrogen brigade."

Andrew ignored him, pulling out a pendant from his shirt pocket. It seemed to be one of about twenty. He rubbed the lint off, then twined the cord around his fingers and looked at Sam. "Come down here or get me a ladder."

Rolling his eyes, Sam leaned down. "What are you hitting me with?"

"Sumerian. Protection ward from one of the old gods." Andrew licked his thumb and pressed it to the pendant, and then the pendant to the center of Sam's forehead. "Hold still. This might sting."

Sam had a second to raise his eyebrows, a silent 'you could've mentioned that'. Then Andrew was speaking, low and quiet and fast, the words blurring into sounds that were lost under the hum of a truck passing on the highway. With a feeling like being snapped by a rubber band, right in the forehead, something rolled over Sam. He blinked away the afterimages as Andrew pulled the pendant away, leaning in to press a light kiss to the center of Sam's forehead.

Andrew murmured, too low for Dean to hear, "Don't let him con you. He needs you."

"I know," Sam said quietly.

"All right." Andrew thumped his shoulder, draped the pendant around Sam's neck and drew back. "You did good. Now go get some holy water. If you see my lousy mutt, take him for a walk around the side of the church."

Read: get out of our hair. Got it. With a smile, Sam rubbed his forehead. "Did that leave a giant kick me sign on my forehead?"

"Not that you can see," Andrew said dryly.

"That's comforting." Catching the bottle as Dean tossed it to him, Sam saluted Andrew with it. Then he looked at Dean. "I'm keeping the keys."

"I figured. Paranoid little bitch, aren't you?" Dean grinned as Sam flipped him off, turning to stride towards the church. "Hey, keep the old ladies occupied while you're in there! More action than you've gotten in months."

As the door closed, Andrew said from dangerously close to Dean, "He's a good kid."

Dean turned to look at him. He could feel the warmth of Andrew's breath on his throat. He swallowed, then smiled his best aggravating, cocky smile. "He does all right. So what do I get, Pig Latin?"

"Mm. No, I was thinking of an old Hebrew blessing," Andrew murmured.

"Hate Hebrew. Never could make sense of it. Can't you use Latin?" Dean asked.

"Nope. I'm set on the Hebrew." Andrew leaned in, touching Dean's cheek lightly. There was an intimacy in the touch that drew Dean's spine tight, and he was grateful when Andrew's eyes fluttered closed.

Andrew chanted, his voice rolling into an odd, harsh cadence. Dean felt the power, pressing down on him, over him like a warm touch. It tightened for a moment, almost choking, then released, laying over his skin with liquid heat.

Andrew leaned up, his lips brushing Dean's gently.

Memories swirled through Dean's head as Andrew's hand curled around his neck, pulling him closer, deepening the kiss. He remembered those hands touching, comforting, stroking slow over his skin. Dean relaxed, purring into the contact.

Surprised, Andrew teased his tongue along Dean's lips, testing.

Power and pleasure shivered through Dean, branding him, sinking into his skin. His hands slid down to Andrew's hips, pulling him closer, letting him deepen the kiss as Dean shuddered at the press of Andrew's lithe body against his.

After a long minute, Andrew pulled back, resting his forehead against Dean's. "Jesus. I really have to do Mass."

Dean blinked at him, lips curling in a vague smile. "Hell of a blessing, Andrew."

"I try." Andrew carefully stepped back, hand lingering on Dean's cheek. He stroked Dean's mouth with his thumb and shivered visibly. "Don't suppose you'd like to stay until after I finish?"

The memory of the last few weeks pushed through his lust fogged brain. Dean remembered the rough heat of other hands on him, scalding fresh burns on his hips, pinning him down. Dean felt his body tense, pulling back a little.

So much for nice, uncomplicated sex. Dammit.

With a sigh, Dean shook his head. "Have zombies in Colorado to deal with," he murmured. "We'll be back soon, though. Month, month and a half. Can I stop by then?"

"You'd better," Andrew smirked. He glanced up as Sam came down the stairs, Andrew's dog in his arms. "Thanks, Sam. Did he do anything?"

"Nah, he was too busy getting fussed over by the ladies," Sam murmured, looking at Dean's slightly befuddled smile and swollen lips. "You about ready?"

"Yeah. You can drive," Dean said, walking carefully to the car.

"Does that mean I get to pick the music?" Sam asked, turning over the engine.

"Don't push it, Sammy." Dean turned up AC/DC as they pulled out onto the highway.


EPILOGUE

Andrew watched as the Impala slid out of sight, then looked down at Darcy, who was sniffing around on the grass. "C'mon, baby. Daddy's got to say mass so we can go the hell back to bed."

A shrill tone made Darcy cock her head, and Andrew slid his phone from his pocket and flipped it open. "Father Murphy."

"They've left the city limits. Should we move on them?" a harsh voice asked, the sound like huge stones grinding together beneath the earth.

Andrew rolled his eyes. "Who's left the city limits?"

A pause. "The Winchester boys," it said slowly. "Sir, maybe you should consider a vacation."

"Their names?" Andrew asked pointedly.

"Sam and Dean?" the voice asked, sounding like nothing more than a child called to task by their teacher.

"Their full names?"

"Uh. I don't-"

"Samuel Gabe, as in Gabriel, and Dean Michael. Or did you miss the flaming sword in the cemetery, you idiot?"

"Yes, sir." At least he had the sense to sound sheepish. "Should we move on them?"

Andrew rubbed the bridge of his nose. "No. Let me make this clear. If they attack, by all means, defend yourself. Do it head on, no bullshit. No tractor trailers, no backstabbing, no dream-walking. But otherwise, leave them alone. Actually, just stay the fuck out of their way. Anyone who touches any of them without just cause will answer to me. And I decide what constitutes just cause. Do you understand?" he asked, voice hard. "They belong to me. I have final word."

"Yes sir." The other man sounded grudging. "May I say something?"

"No. Particularly if it's about objectivity. Now fuck off, and don't call me until it's something important." With a sigh, Andrew snapped his cell phone shut. Then he looked to the sky, shaking his head. "You gave me all the idiots. And you could've warned me that your wrath has freckles."

There was no answer. There usually wasn't.

With a last look down the road, he-- who was called many names: Arawn, Hades, Shiva, Set, Loki and more recently Lucifer, the Adversary, Lord of Lies, the patron saint of the left-hand son, the Prince of Darkness-- went in to say morning Mass.
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The End.

Comments

[virtualinsomnia]

Oh, this was brilliant! And now, here I am, waiting on pins and needles for that sequel...

[kronette.livejournal.com]

I'll toss in my "holy helldamngoodstory" comment and say:

Holy hell, damn good story! I read it straight through, because I can't bear to read WIPs, but this one was killing me. Thank you, for writing them so beautifully, achingly real.

[djinanna.livejournal.com]

So like, on top of the whole "curl up in a corner and recover" thing I've had going, I've also had to (and still am/do/whatever) take some time to process the ending of this fic.

I mean - geez. On the one hand, I was thinking stuff like "to live up to the hints, Andrew is gonna have to be somebody/something big", but on the other I was thinking "most writers won't go there, to the really BIG names in cosmology/theology/whatever".

But you did. Arch-angels. The brothers are arch-angels. But are they ... avatars of Michael and Gabriel ... or incarnate manifestations ... or reflections ... or literally the two made human flesh...?

And the same question with Andrew. Is he literally "Arawn, Hades, Shiva, Set, Loki and more recently Lucifer, the Adversary, Lord of Lies, the patron saint of the left-hand son, the Prince of Darkness" and even if so, what does that mean? Where does Andrew, who was raised by Father Jim (did I get that name right?) and grew up with Dean and Sam, stop and "Arawn...etc" start? Is there a difference between the two identities at all, or....

And, questions of "individual" identity aside, what does it all mean cosmologically, culturally, philosophically, religiously, literally ... etc etc. I mean, what is the frame of reference/definition(s) of these entities?!

The arch-angels Michael and Gabriel are mentioned in a number of religions/religious texts, from a wide variety of traditions. The various Judeo-Christian and Islamic traditions ... various occult and new age traditions ... etc. And there are multiple traditions referenced in the "Arawn...etc" list describing Andrew.

I mean - Andrew doesn't seem evil (whatever that means within the context of this story's universe), per se, and nothing he says makes him irrevocably a traditional "fallen angel" and "enemy of God and His angels". There are a lot of other interpretations of what Satan, for example, is/could be.

And then I look at the Minnesota segment of the story. Non-Christian cosmologies mingling (Norse and Native American), I mean.

In other words ... I was uncertain, hesitant, about this latest development at first. But on further thought, it really is a grand development of already hinted at themes. Especially if I refuse to take anything at simple or face value, but instead wait for you to slowly unfurl/reveal the significance. It promises to be fascinating reading.

And ... that's not actually even my comment on the last couple chapters. It's just a moment of semi-incoherent rambling. So, more (I hope) soon....

[asha-dreamweave.livejournal.com]

Can I just say WOW?!! This fic had me glued to my laptop and is easily THE best Supernatural fic I have ever read. I am really looking forward to the sequel! And the ending of this one? Genius!

[trishabooms.livejournal.com]

I had to wait until I came back from my hols to read the last six chapters, but oh my was it worth the wait.
This has been an excellent story, great characterisation and a compulsive, page-turner of a plot.
The ending was just superb, never for a minute did I see Andrew as the fallen angel, but it worked beautifully. So much so that I'd really like to see more of him with Dean.
Great work girls, thank you for a thoroughly entertaining read!

[beanside.livejournal.com]

As far as I know, Michael isn't canon, but that'd be funny. Andrew's...not necessarily evil. But not necessarily good, either. *grin*

We're working on it now! Thanks!

[(Anonymous)]

I was just wondering if Michael is canon because I've seen it in other fanfics.You want to know what's weird?The middle name I use for Dean is Andrew.

[beanside.livejournal.com]

*snerk* Fracking Andrew. In the original outline, he was going to show up, wave the exposition stick, and leave. Then, all of a sudden, he's Satan, and it's making so much more sense. Also, it looks like we'll be posting a prequel first, then the sequel. The prequel? Porn. with Andrew and Dean, about a year and a half pre-series. Dammit.

*grin* Thank you!

[beanside.livejournal.com]

*laugh* Awww...it's okay. There'll be a sequel soon.

I'm glad you enjoyed it! Thank you for all your support and kind words!

We're working on getting it up into one file online, so once it's up, we'll post a link!

[beanside.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for all your support and kind words over the last 36 parts!

Yeah, Lucifer. Go figure. *grin*

We're going to try to clear up some of them in the next part, have no fear.

[beanside.livejournal.com]

Not exactly angels, per se. They're still 100% human, but in accepting their roles, they accepted a certain destiny.

It's not that they're godsent. They actually had the potential to play for either team, heaven or hell.

But that'll get cleared up a little more in the sequel.

Thanks again for all the kind words!

[beanside.livejournal.com]

*grin* Thank you!

[beanside.livejournal.com]

This is what happens when a couple of recovering Catholic pagans write religious themes in fiction. *grin*

*laugh* Yeah, Andrew's a mess. And Darcy (literal translation of Darcy="from below" *grin*) I hadn't thought about Good Omens, but since we adore the book, it wouldn't be surprising that we automatically thought of a yappy hellhound.

Thank you so much!

[beanside.livejournal.com]

*grin* Andrew's blessing will be mentioned in the sequel, have no fear.

I'm glad you liked! Thank you!

[eloise-bright.livejournal.com]

Then he looked to the sky, shaking his head. "You gave me all the idiots. And you could've warned me that your wrath has freckles."

Best storyending ever. More feedback when my brain reconnects. STUNNING fic, truly stunning.

[iamthedirtgirl.livejournal.com]

ok. So, I sat down a couple of days ago and went to work on reading this. I was so completely taken in by it and loved every second. I have every intention of going back, rereading each chapter and picking out specific things that I found especially wonderful about each. I just didn't want to stop while I was reading to do it because I was so into it. I had lots to say in this comment, but you kinda blew all that out of my mind with your epilogue. I'm still trying to gather my wits here.

I think one of the things I loved with this was that you left things not explained in certain areas that have left me curious and yet, not everything in life has explanations, they just are and that made this that much better. Also, knowing there is a sequal and a prequal, I know some of those things are going to get explained through the reveal that happens to the characters.

I never would have guessed, though I knew it couldn't be good, who Andrew really was. That just rocked me back and made me laugh a bit and wonder what exactly Andrew has planned for the boys. I need to go back and reread who exactly it was that told John that by binding them all to the hourglass then if one died all would, because if it was Andrew then, man was he lying?

I liked that as the guys are going away, they are both so far from ok still, and yet they just have to keep moving. It's them. I like that you took the time to have the repercussions of everything be actual repercussions. We don't even know the full extent of what Dean can do. And we only have a vague idea of how that has affected him in a negative and positive manner, same with how Sams abilities have changed and adapted. The description of the battle was brilliant. You made Dean so glorious and so ready to break and then his family is right there filling in the gaps with their own gifts and it was wonderful. And yes, I so loved your John.

The way Dean was trying to sneak away cracked me up and that they were on to him and the banter that followed was great. I'm so curious to see what you will do with the lingering after affects of all of this in the follow up. The introduction to the hunters network was terrific, and really is there anyone Dean hasn't slept with? I also hope the Viking biker bar people will come back in cause they were a bit of brilliance on your part. How much of Dean is still on the edge and how long will he stay there? John isn't the type to stay still, how is he going to reform his life to meet his knew limitations? Sam has accepted everything and has found this control he never had and yet he is also so fucked up and I can't wait to see if this new way he has learned to be will remain. How much will his fear of losing Dean affect his decision making?

I'm not done thinking or asking or anything. But I am going to walk away and think for a while. And just so much respect to you guys for writing this and thanks for sharing it. Also, trust me on this, you've got some real serious fangirl squeeing breaking the sound barrier over the angst, hurt/comfort, beautiful Dean and general sexy representations of Dean and Sam and John in so many different ways throughout. You bitch slapped my hormones into the background with the intensity of the story - go you, that's a difficult thing to do these days. More soon.

[kiraboshi.livejournal.com]

Oooo. That was so awesome. I really have enjoyed this entire fic, and can I just say, I read through that little thing there with Dean and Andrew (skipped a bit of stuff throughout), and MAN. I think there might be something to this slash thing... :) Thanks, girls, for the fun ride.

[beanside.livejournal.com]

*laugh* Glad we could enterain you!

Thank you again for all the kind words and for the amazing feedback o' 40k. It was lovely. Hopefully, you got my reply to it, since I know your e-mails been a little messed up. If not, I'll be happy to send it again.

[beanside.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I'm glad you liked it! We're working on the sequel and prequel now. The benefits to co-authoring--we can work on a couple of things at once.

*hugs*

[beanside.livejournal.com]

*laugh* I'm glad you liked it! Thanks for all the wonderful feedback throughout!

[beanside.livejournal.com]

*grin* We're already working on the sequel and prequels, have no fear. After 7 years together, we've got this writing thing down to a science.

Thank you so much for all your wonderful feedback and kind support!

[beanside.livejournal.com]

*grin* Thank you so much for the kind words throughout, not to mention the pimping.

We're already back at work on the sequel and prequel. Looks like it's going to be two sequels, actually. The second sequel is turning out all Empire Strikes back on us. *laugh* Go figure.

[beanside.livejournal.com]

*blush* That's really very sweet of you.

And don't worry. They're still just Sam and Dean. It's more of a...function that they're fullfilling than something that they are.

Thank you for the lovely praise!

[beanside.livejournal.com]

*grin* Thank you so much for the kind words.

I'm glad you liked Andrew/Dean, since one of the things were working on now is a sort of porny prequel with the two of them. Andrew's kind of a pain in the ass, demanding little bastard, yet I really like writing him. And yes, he does get an awfully fine piece of ass for his trouble.

Ah, the wringer has just started, I'm afraid. It's looking like the main stories will actually be a trilogy, with the second part shaping up to be very Empire Strikes Back. It's gonna be ugly, that's all I'm sayin.

I'm really glad you enjoyed it.

[maygra.livejournal.com]

I did get your return comment! I'm sorry. I thought I said htat already. Eek. It was fun...although really could have gone on and on and on. And probably will at some point, maybe after the sequel because yes, I *think* you alluded to the fact that much of what I was already squeaking and flailing about would be addressed in the sequel..so...becasue yes, the meta on this story alone could probably be and entire thesis of discussion. Because yes, I wanted to know why Sam lied about not having visions (or hedging his bets with Dean, just because they'd changed) and who's left gunning for them...and what Sam and Jess talked about, and how Dean will handle is new-found firestarting abilities and how many angels are dancing on the head of this particular pin, and what Andrew is up to...and you know...stuff.