Being ashamed of your body only makes it that much easier to disassociate your *self* from your body to the point where you don't know or care what's going on with it.
I've spent the better part of twenty-five years disassociated, and all shame has ever made me feel like doing was buying a half-gallon of ice cream and scarfing it down while I read fanfic. It's only now, after several false starts and over a decade of wanting to lose weight that I think I might finally be able to get healthier. But I will always love food - I will never be a twig, and I'm fine with that. I just want to get my body to a point where I'm able to do the other things I love as well.
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Date: 2008-09-12 03:13 pm (UTC)Being ashamed of your body only makes it that much easier to disassociate your *self* from your body to the point where you don't know or care what's going on with it.
I've spent the better part of twenty-five years disassociated, and all shame has ever made me feel like doing was buying a half-gallon of ice cream and scarfing it down while I read fanfic. It's only now, after several false starts and over a decade of wanting to lose weight that I think I might finally be able to get healthier. But I will always love food - I will never be a twig, and I'm fine with that. I just want to get my body to a point where I'm able to do the other things I love as well.