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Title: That Middle Road (31/48)
Author: nilchance
Pairing: Misha Collins/Jeremy Sisto
Rating: Adult
Disclaimer: This isn't real.
A/N: Set in poisontaster's A Kept Boy 'verse. This story deals with mental illness, specifically bipolar disorder, and with slavery as used in the AKB 'verse. There's also mention of rape, suicide, institutionalization and self-harm. And polyamory. And kink. And a partridge in a pear tree.

What Jeremy doesn't tell Misha is this: he wishes he felt like after Marisa dumped him. )
nilchance: Picture of a pomegranate with spilled seeds, text "I think you're confused, I'm not Persephone" (Default)
Title: That Middle Road (31/48)
Author: nilchance
Pairing: Misha Collins/Jeremy Sisto
Rating: Adult
Disclaimer: This isn't real.
A/N: Set in poisontaster's A Kept Boy 'verse. This story deals with mental illness, specifically bipolar disorder, and with slavery as used in the AKB 'verse. There's also mention of rape, suicide, institutionalization and self-harm. And polyamory. And kink. And a partridge in a pear tree.

This chapter is entangled with Chapter 67 of poisontaster's excellent fic A Kept Boy. I recommend that you read her version first, because it details more of the actual dinner / conversation. Basically my version is from the Jeremy and Misha angle.

Misha looks over the Trust Files three times. )
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Title: That Middle Road (30/48)
Author: [personal profile] nilchance
Pairing: Misha Collins/Jeremy Sisto
Rating: Adult
Disclaimer: This isn't real.
A/N: Set in [personal profile] poisontaster's A Kept Boy 'verse. This story deals with mental illness, specifically bipolar disorder, and with slavery as used in the AKB 'verse. There's also mention of rape, suicide, institutionalization and self-harm. And polyamory. And kink. And a partridge in a pear tree.

Misha asks google, how do you friend? )
nilchance: original artist terry moore; blonde staring at canvas with nude male and black handprint (fandom)
Title: Everlong
Pairing: Jeremy/Misha
Author: [personal profile] nilchance
Summary: In which there is porn.
A/N: Set in the future of That Middle Road, when Misha and Jeremy figure their shit out enough to sleep together. Thank you for looking this over and letting me know when Misha is apparently sucking his own dick, [personal profile] poisontaster. You are awesome.

Jeremy talks a lot in bed. )
nilchance: photo of vividly red flowers (blood flowers)
T and I are federally married.

When we first handfasted in 2003, I never dreamed this would happen in our lifetime. But it has, and it's wonderful.

<3
nilchance: text from The Dark Tower; "I do not kill with my gun." (I kill with my heart)
Down the Rabbit Hole: the world of estranged parents' forum

Awesome blogger examines the patterns of estranged parents forums vs. adult abuse survivors forums. Trigger warning re: abuse. I found it interesting but disturbing how much this echoed my own experiences with my father.
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Title: Oh Sweet Ignition
Author: [personal profile] nilchance
Pairing: Jeffrey Dean Morgan/Jensen Ackles, past Jeffrey Dean Morgan/Jeremy Sisto
Summary: Jensen goes into heat.
A/N: This is an alpha/beta/omega story set in [personal profile] poisontaster's A Kept Boy 'verse. Dub-con.

Jeff has to admit that the palm pilot is awesome. )
nilchance: original artist terry moore; blonde staring at canvas with nude male and black handprint (fandom)
Sometimes writing is an uphill slog.

But sometimes I get to write about dragons fighting helicopters.
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The new puppy has been in our house for about 36 hours and already I've found him on top of the cat tree.
nilchance: text: 'things to do today: get up, survive, go back to bed' (survival)
I've reached that point where I feel bad for not posting in this space, and then feel bad because the only things I can think to post is depressing. I do think it's important to be transparent about the process of becoming less bugfuck crazy, but not right this second.

Sooo. Small good things:

1. I don't have to travel this winter. I can stay home in my bed with good books, cats, and wife.
2. There's this dating sim that just came out that I plan to get this weekend.
3. T and I are still going to see the new Hobbit movie.
4. Mythbusters is coming back in January.
5. We're looking into getting another dog.

Good friends, good family. Yule coming up in two days. New light of the year. It's good.
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FYI for those who might have The Shining Girls by Lauren Beukes on their to-read list: there is one graphic on-screen animal death.

Otherwise it's an excellent book that reads like an answer to true crime and procedural books and their emphasis on the serial killer above the victims. Would recommend.
nilchance: original artist terry moore; blonde staring at canvas with nude male and black handprint (fandom)
Title: That Middle Road (29/48)
Author: [personal profile] nilchance
Pairing: Misha Collins/Jeremy Sisto
Rating: Adult
Disclaimer: This isn't real.
A/N: Set in [personal profile] poisontaster's A Kept Boy 'verse. This story deals with mental illness, specifically bipolar disorder, and with slavery as used in the AKB 'verse. There's also mention of rape, suicide, institutionalization and self-harm. And polyamory. And kink. And a partridge in a pear tree.

Denis always wins volume wars. )
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Also I'm glitterchance on tumblr. Forgot to mention.
nilchance: text: 'things to do today: get up, survive, go back to bed' (survival)
I've been gone from DW/LJ so long that it seems awkward to insert myself back into the stream. Especially after a blunt post like the last one.

So here's a funny story from yesterday:

I was sitting in the parking lot of a grocery store yesterday, waiting for an appt with my shrink. I was idling with the A/C on, listening to an audio book (Garden of Iden by Kage Baker, very good so far) and this dude opened my driver's side door.

I shoved him hard enough to bounce him off his van door. And then I burst into tears. (Did I mention that I've been diagnosed with PTSD? Yeah.)

He was apologetic as hell, because he'd just been clumsily trying to explain that my seat belt was hanging outside my door. He was very concerned about me, less so that he'd been shoved by mini!crippled!Hulk.

The funny part is that his wife was in the van. She opened the passenger door, investigating the loud bang followed by a stream of horrified apologies, heard what was going on, rolled her eyes, and closed the door without a word.

Story over. *curtsys*

How are you folks?
nilchance: Picture of a pomegranate with spilled seeds, text "I think you're confused, I'm not Persephone" (Default)
Until further notice, the only established series I will be working on is That Middle Road. If that changes, you will know. This is a mental health decision.

I understand that this is inconvenient and disappointing. I apologize.

Comments are off.
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What I'm Reading
Audio: Red Seas Under Red Skies (Scott Lynch) in preparation for the next book in the Gentlemen Bastards series coming out in October. The narrator is hilarious because his voice for Locke is a dead ringer for Jack Sparrow, and the book involves pirates. (Black single mother badass pirate captain!) I'm really enjoying the story, which is pirates + heists + con artists over their heads + fantasy pantheons. I really love me some alternate mythology, guys, it is a thing.

E-book: The Shattering (Karen Healey), which is New Zealand YA thriller involving three teens investigating the suicides of their siblings, who (as it turns out) might not have been suicides at all. I haven't gotten too deep in this book yet, just 50 pages in, but it's good so far. Healey does an excellent job of humanizing characters that would be cliches in other works.

What I Just Finished
I finished Lunatic Fringe (Allison Moon), a lesbian werewolf story. I should have loved this book, because it involved lesbians and werewolves; two of my favorite things! And it's especially bitter because for the first hundred pages, I was really picking up what this book laid down. There was a feminist sorority with realistic depictions of mainstream feminism's failure to recognize trans* issues or intersectionality of race and gender! But then the whole thing derailed into the protagonist not being like Those Mean Feminists. Also there was surprise!fisting, which is like my least favorite kind of fisting.

What's Next
I'm thinking about reading Preacher, the graphic novel series. I read Crossed by the same writer and was Not Impressed, but Preacher involves supernatural horror in Texas and so I'm giving it a shot. As for audio, I'm probably going to read Hearts in Atlantis (King), finally, after saying I'm going to pick that up next. King is a reliably great storyteller with reliable failings, which draw me in and push me away in equal measure.

Also I'm writing again. So. That's pretty neat.
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Update: thing is done, all clear on the western front. Thank you all.

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